This is just a simple letter, one that holds pieces of my pain and also of my faith which you broke. You did the very thing, which changed me left me shattered and changed me in the process. Everyone has their firsts in everything. You did, however, turn out to be the first girl to use me and exhaust me in all ways possible with your emotional manipulation.

Now? I don’t give a fuck. When you make someone think they have a chance with you, when you tell them things that make it feel that person is doing great being with you. When you make promises that I am the one who will fix things in your life. You made me believe very special in believing every damn story you told me about your life. Maybe I fooled myself, thinking you did change or you meant everything you said.

I was having the tough time in life. I was feeling worthless. I was going difficult phase full of uncertainties. Meeting you changed everything. The happiest I have ever been in my life was during the six months, I felt that I can be that special person to change someone’s life, but that cannot discount the reality on how you used and manipulated me to your advantage. To say nothing of the fact that both of us had the most mind-blowing sex ever. Full-on fireworks. That’s about it. That’s it. It doesn’t mean anything more than that for me.

But you know, sure. You didn’t mean each and everything you said. and I should have distanced and protected myself better. I ignored everything my friends said. I even ignored what my best friend said. I turned deaf to everyone who advised me to stay away from you. You can’t make someone considers you special and manipulate them into a one-sided relationship, where you play emotional games with their feeling using the hope that one day you both will be together. In reality, you never had any such feelings.

Maybe you feel powerless in real life. You would have got the sense of power and dominance in playing with my feelings. You wanted things from me and you knew how I felt about you and you used those feelings for your advantage and you used me. So I want you to know that how I feel now since you knew very well that how I felt then.

But I must say that you taught me a lot of valuable lessons that have made me a kind of expert at navigating the manipulative games girl plays with guys. I have been very careful in dealing with every girl since you left. You always told me that I was being crazy for suspecting you, But when I finally wanted answers for the questions, you ended up contradicting yourself. You even went to extent of threatening with suicide. I want you to know that I was sad and I was hurt and after what you did this to me.

You changed me on such a deep, emotional level that I don’t even have the proper words to thank you.You changed me on such a deep, emotional level that I don’t even have the proper words to thank you. The best thing you ever did to me. I was force me to become strong as If nothing happened after being hurt. You give me no choice but to grow as an individual, as a better person. I will be forever grateful for that. You have opened up my eyes. I am such a different person and, even though there’s always room for improvement, I am happy that you came to my life and played games with me without that I wouldn’t have the person, what I am now. But what I want you to know most is that I still love myself, and I still know what love really is.

I will be forever grateful for that. You have opened up my eyes. I am such a different person and, even though there’s always room for improvement, I am happy that you came to my life and played games with me without that I wouldn’t have the person, what I am now. But what I want you to know most is that I still love myself, and I still know what love really is.

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