Dear My Ex-Best Friend,
For Some weird, I feel that I should write this letter. I am sorry, I am pretty sure we are not together, and we wouldn’t be as before. This isn’t going to be sentimental, or kindly asking for a white flag to be waved. This isn’t for me to say that I miss you and hope that you are doing well. I know what happened between us was not supposed to happen, I know that it’s a load of crap and life isn’t a series of neatly packaged parcels, but I can’t get rid of this feeling that I need to say my part.
This is for me to finally say what I could have said before, but I couldn’t find the right words to express the anger and tears. I know I hurt you, so did you; you were once a friend that I would have done anything for, and now things have changed a lot between us.
It’s been years since we last talked who would have seen this coming? I know I definitely didn’t. I don’t even know what to say to you when I run into you somewhere. You used to know all of my secrets and now I don’t even know how to say hi to you.
Never in a million years would either of us have seen this coming. It was an unbreakable bond that we shared, but after I just had to come to terms with the fact that you weren’t good for me. You weren’t bringing any more happiness into my life.
In life, so much has happened since we last spoke, Even though we are no longer friends. I still want to tell you all the things I always wanted to. And it sucks! It sucks a lot that we are no longer friends. And it sucks because you are not that person to me anymore.
We were supposed to be friends forever – but the next terrible thing I knew happened between us was that we were growing further and further apart, which wasn’t fair. But I guess that’s life. Nothing is constant and no one owes anyone anything. And even though we are not friends anymore, I still want to thank you.
Thank you for being my best friend dealing with every shit you had to put up. Thank you for everything. Thank you for being honest and genuinely caring. Thank you for taking me for what I am, and never let anyone’s comment or opinion get in the way. And thank you for being the best friend, I needed during that part of my life.
And even though we are no longer friends, I just want you to know that I could never hate you. Trust me, I have tried it several times. It sounds terribly awful, I thought it would be easy to do but I couldn’t, I just couldn’t. I was hurt when you left, but I will never hate you. You were my best friend. And how things ended up between us which was not supposed to happen, I won’t hate you.
Sometimes, I still scroll through pictures of us and smile and laugh. And whenever I see something that reminds me of you, I laugh. I don’t think there will ever be a day when we will be friends as we used to be before. The sadness and hurt are fading, and I have learnt to look at you as a cherished memory.
I will always stalk you online to make sure that you are doing well. And know that even I don’t turn away next time I see you (I have done that before) I will be happy that I had you as my best friend. Although it had to end this way, please don’t ever think that all these years together meant nothing to me. I will cherish it forever.
Everyone chooses their paths in life, and I guess your path just no longer gets with mine or fate don’t bring us together. But I hope you are happy. Because I really do wish you the best. I hope that you have found someone new to equally complain and celebrate all the things. We each choose a path at some point in our life and unfortunately, mine no longer includes you.
Your Ex-Best Friend