It happens to all of us at some point. We mess up big time. Maybe it’s an awkward first date that should have gone better, sent a text meant for another woman or worse, for acting impulsively in the excitement of being with the person and broke up with her too soon. Sometimes you fail at dating, and there is nothing you can do to fix the problem. It’s just another hard lesson! You never get a chance to fix it. But occasionally, those rare second chance do come along, but if fate allows, you play the game right without doing the same mistakes.
The person you are trying to dazzle would be more impressed if she didn’t feel overwhelmed and instead got to know the real you. Of course, if your date doesn’t want to give you another chance, it’s best to just let it go. She might have had her own reasons for not connecting with you romantically, so move on to the next prospect. I have a history of screwing up things, where there was a chance of taking things forward. Either I have never been the right person, or I made the poor decision.
In the past, I have never been long enough with anyone to get things doing deeper and intense, where both gets comfortable in their own self with each other. I mean aside from my batchmate and his girlfriend (who also happen to be my batchmate) I haven’t seen any real relationships from in forever. As cliche as it sounds, I really feel it, when I say this.
I still carry the hangover from previous relationships and people I have been with, and it’s so god damn hard for me to open up to another person, that I am pretty much doomed. I think there are also a lot of faults that lie in this though too. Sometimes, one get so much get caught up in the questions that are left with, which we find it difficult to answer. The fear of making the wrong decisions or things going really bad haunts without any answers.
I think that I over analyze things, and tend to close down my mind to the other person to understand properly. I often wonder that how I have confined to myself, Is it the fear of making mistakes? Is it being the wrong person who might play with feelings? I am not complaining here, just out of curiosity. I am just analyzing myself a bit. Maybe, I am over doing it. I should just stop.
I feel that what If whatever it going through my head, and I feel in a way it’s kind of a good thing. It keeps me on the toes. It put me in a position to be a better person every single day, constantly wanting to improve and be a better person before I meet my significant other. I think there’s something exhilarating feeling, about never knowing what the future holds for you and a potential lover.